People always desire fairytale beginnings and happily ever afters, not willing to acknowledge that much of that initial spark, that moment of first love is a projection of our hopes and desires all pulverized into stardust and blinds us for those moments. We go through meeting each soul in life hoping that they are the one that can be by our side and let us live a normal life like everyone else. But true love is that one that lasts through all the trials and errors. It’s not the one that makes us feel better than everyone else. It’s not the one that makes us fall the hardest nor the one that makes us feel like everything all of a sudden makes sense. It’s the one that is left behind after all the hurt and pain from all the fireworks. It’s the one that feels like fire in every form -like lovers, like family, like friends, like lost souls who forgot each other from a long time ago.

True love is the one that you can’t measure with any meter stick or unit of time. Not years, not months, not minutes. I always had you come with me so I can show you something different. We are totally different creatures because we are completely on different sides of the puzzle. I’m sorry you can never quantify my feelings for you with time or money because I have neither. I am counting every second of happiness I have left with you and I only have dollars compared to your millions. The true magic is that even though the photo –the puzzle we form is wild and crazy -all our pieces fit together perfectly.

We only exist in this moment, but I want to distort it and stretch it until infinity.

I want forever with you because seconds are not enough.

The true magic lies behind the fact that I chose you regardless of your complicated life and hardships we had to go through to get here. The real magic is that its you are the one I commit to even though hundreds of other people touched my heartstrings. It is you that matters the most above all others because of the time I dedicated to dreaming about us, to want us, to cry for us, to protect us, to cherish us. I look at you and see how amazing we are together and I whisper your name every morning hoping to wake you up so you can be as excited as I am that we are together every moment we have left.

I can promise you that I’m committing every piece of my broken soul to you for as long as we have together. All we ever had was the present moment anyways. All we ever had was right now.

You are my true love not because you were ever meant for me. Not because our existence was made for each other. Not because the strings of our past lives were intertwined. Not because we will have a fairytale ending or even end up together forever. But because in this lifetime, I choose you to be so.

I want us to burn these moments into memories forever. All we ever had was one chance in one lifetime. I took all the love that exists in me and in this world and gave it to you and it’s gone forever and will only burn in your memories. I trace your slender fingers with my hands and gaze into your eyes so that even if you left me I’ll remember your every touch, every scent, every quiver of your lips.

You don’t want to have to care about hurting me. You don’t want to be forced to watch me cry. You rather foolishly use every last amount of courage you have left to believe I don’t love you enough and that Fate is justified to tear us apart.

I want to feel your warmth when the world gets too cold because I know I haven’t been able to find it anywhere else for the past ten years. I’ve held on to you selfishly this long because I know you’ll always be there for me no matter what I do. I held on to him this long because I know he’ll also be there waiting for me no matter what I do. I am not strong enough right now so I’ll go back to the home I used to know hoping that I’m still the same person I left behind two years ago. I want it all, but I’m scared to admit it. I rather just stop seeing you than face myself.

It wasn’t because you are you, it was because you somehow managed to have room in your life for me to be all of me too. I will never regret you. You always made me wild for you. You always made me crave life with you like no one has had before. I want every inch of hurt I can get with you. I want that intoxicating happiness when we are in each other’s arms. I chose you to be my true love even if it’s a losing card game, even if I gamble and lose it all. I choose you because all the passion and love I have for you gave me to strength to do so. The magic is the fact that I can choose you to be my true love even if the world turns against us -even if Fate turns against me. No one can do anything about it -Fate cannot stop me from caring about you or loving you the most.

I want this lifetime with you or I want nothing at all. I want to love you more than I have loved everyone before because I have the freedom to choose. And I will choose you over and over until I’m nothing but pile of bones and forgotten ashes. I don’t need us to have a fairytale ending. I don’t need you to be here for me to love you until eternity ends. No one can stop me from tattooing our foolishness into my heart until I die because I chose to love you beyond forever …because even forever is not enough.